Plans

"Nothing is by chance...No detail is forgotten in my plans for you" -Two Listeners

This is from a Christian quote of the day thing that I have setup for my igoogle homepage...

I post it here because it is frustratingly accurate today. Or maybe it's just frustrating that I know it is true, but it is hard to believe today.

I spent the weekend in Chicago for Kelly and Mark's wedding. SO FUN. :-) I loved it. True, it rained (really hard at times), but we had a good time dancing and celebrating with a lot of people that I haven't seen very often in a long time.

I know it was a short trip, but I really wanted to be there for the wedding, and I had been planning on it for a year before I even knew I was moving to Virginia...so I made a weekend out of it.

I was supposed to get on a plane at 5:00 today, and get home by 11:00 tonight. I had 2 connections: Cleveland and Washington, DC.

I arrived at the airport thinking that despite the rain, my plane would be fine, because it was just a sprinkle. When I found out that my flight was delayed, though, I wasn't too surprised...maybe it was worse than I thought. The problem came, though, that my layovers were not long enough to accomodate any delay at all...the delay from Chicago to Cleveland would cause me to miss my connecting flight to Washington...and missing that flight meant there was no way I would get back to the Shenendoah Valley Airport tonight....

The agent checked other flights into Dulles Airport (in Washington), but they all were either delayed because of weather or other issues.

I was so surprised when she offered me a hotel voucher, because my flight wasn't delayed because of weather...it was delayed because of problems with the crew (if a flight is delayed because of weather, they won't pay for your accommodations...).

So...nothing happens by chance.... What is this supposed to teach me? Why am I stuck at a hotel in Rosemont, IL (because my parents live an hour away and didn't want to turn around and come back after dropping me off and driving home, let alone drive me back here tomorrow morning for my flight...)?

I should probably spend more of my energy looking for "divine appointments" and less of it complaining/wondering why I'm here.

Arg

I'm making a present for my step-sister, Becky for Christmas. It's going to be really cool, when it is finished. Right now, though, I am major-ly frustrated. This present requires sewing, and working with fabric that is quite delicate. It requires ironing, and applique-ing. Gross. Why did I decide to do this, you may ask? Because it's going to be very cool when it is finished, and I think she will like it a lot. Right now I'm just having problems with the fabric fraying, the bobbin on the sewing machine not working, and my inconsistencies with a zig-zag stitch are driving me nuts!

Another thing that makes me say, "Arg" right now is my grade for one of my MSU classes. I just found out that I have a 3.5. Some might say, "3.5 in a master's class, great job, Jess!" Not me. I'm frustrated because, even though I didn't put as much work into the end of the class as I did in the beginning, and even though my last assignment wasn't as good as it should have been, I have consistently been one of the first to attempt anything in that class, and one of the few that consistently puts in effort. I'm frustrated because I get a graded paper back that has no negative comments on it, and the score is, "95% - A". Especially when according to the grading scale, 95% is just barely a 4.0. On that grading scale, I don't know that anyone in the class got a 4.0. And I think there are at least 3-4 out of the 15 that deserve it. I guess I should have done better on the last project, which was worth 30% of my grade (I got a B - 85% which is just barely a 3.0). Even on the final grade sheet, the comments read something like this, "Jessica, although your work on the last project was not as strong as the others, I have been consistently impressed by your confidence and abilities. You have the potential of becoming an excellent teacher of the deaf. I look forward to when you are truly my 'colleague' and not just my 'student'." And I got a A-/B+. Whatever.

I guess the bigger question is, "why are you so upset about this?"
Do I really deserve anything?
Did I really earn anything?
Should I be thankful for what I have?
Is there anything I can do to change it? If not, then why worry?

Just my thoughts.